UNFINISHED WORK

I found myself asking many questions this morning and throughout the day. Yes, I still have questions for God.
Those who would say I have no business questioning the Almighty, may be right. However, I got permission!
I am never in doubt that he is GOD ALMIGHTY, so, that is a non-issue.
I have questions like: How do I change myself? Am I expected to do a 360 in 24 hours? Or am I expected to reform and renew piece by piece? If the latter is the way, which piece is first?
How can I suddenly decide that I have forgiven all my transgressors and still say i am being honest, when I know some are harder to forgive than some?
If I stop suddenly, doing some of the things I used to do, then I keep looking back at those things, where is the honesty?
Am I expected to change totally, or do I retain some of my original self? If yes, do I have the strength to do it, but, more importantly to maintain it? If no, what parts/qualities do I keep? How will I know?

I am praying while I'm asking . . . . I am unfinished work.