MY COMEUPPANCE

I have absolutely no intention of climbing on a soap box and crow that I was always faithful in prayer and my belief in God. I will, however, say, without question, that I have no doubt about the strength and efficacy of prayer.

I WILL NOT pretend to always be at the peak of faith, or pretend to always be trusting in God. I have had my days when I have questioned him, even took the liberty of challenging him, (little did that do). I have been downright vexed with him for things I believe should not have happened to me. Yes, I felt like I didn't deserve some of the things that happened to me. Still do.

I have told HIM, YES, TOLD HIM, that I have no intention of forgiving anyone who has done me wrong anymore. I have also told him that, I really don't want to wish anything 'bad' to happen to the people that hurt me, but I wouldn't mind witnessing their 'comeuppance'.

So, He listened to my carrying-ons, my cussing, (Yes - BADWUD) HE listened to me telling HIM how I was pissed off with HIM for taking some things and some people from me.(Mi still vex wid Him fi tek Mama an mi tell him to!)

HE never said a word. Still, I WOKE UP EVERY MORNING FOR THE LAST 48 YEARS. If HE was/is mad at me, I never knew it, for with all my carrying on, I WOKE UP EVERY MORNING !

Ever so often, HE would pose some serious questions. (Of course, I had an answer)
Joan, yu waan mi fi forgive yu all yu trespasses, but yu a tell mi seh yu nah forgive nuhbaddy weh trespass against YOU! Yu tink seh dat fair?

I said yes! It fair enough fa mi nevah do dem nutten!

So, HE said: "But I don't care if you did anything to them, or not, I will forgive you. However, that's unfair for you to be 'free of guilt' and they should go around with the weight of your guilt on their shoulders. That's not for you to decide. That's my job! Concern yourself, with your own soul!"

I wasn't having it. Didn't seem fair in my book. Besides, mi seh HIM too slow!

Well, HE has been poking and prodding me for years. Finally, and with much warning, on October 24, 2009, I got hit with a BRICK!

Well, 'I was coming around to it.' Still, I felt set in my ways.
So, on Sunday, November 29, 2009, HE decided that I was a 'haad ayze pickney' and I need to listen, so, there was ANOTHER BRICK.

This time, it took ALL OF YOUR PRAYERS, begging him to 'please guh easy pon har' (Believe mi people, I BEG TO! MI NUH SHAME FI SEH SUH, MI BEG FI MI LIFE LIKE A DRUG DEALAH IN FRONT OF A DEA AGENT WID A M-16!)

So, HE said to me, "All I want you to do is believe and leave everything to me! DO NOT LET ME TELL YOU AGAIN!"

So, I said: "But now mi haffi change everything!

HE said: Not everything. Those things that need to be changed leave them to me!

I have received my comeuppance!