FAITH

I have no faith, but I have begun to acquire it.

I don't care anymore about those who would pass judgment on me for that shortcoming - I have already spoken to God about it.

I am afraid and I am not ashamed to say it. I also told him so, and HE said it was ok but that HE would also take care of that.

I told him that I am worried about my children - He said there is no need to be because they are great kids and he has been looking after them from day 1 so it's not like it's a 'new job' or anything like that.

So, here I am, telling all of you about one of my conversations with God. I told him that I felt particularly bad because It's not like I don't know about HIM, but I was quite upset, and downright disappointed in the way he handled some things.

Well, he said a few things: (a) I know all about YOU! You can't tell ME nothing about you! (b) YOU need to understand that what I do and THE WAY I DO IT is done because YOU NEED TO TRUST ME AND NOT WORRY ABOUT HOW OTHERS ARE DOING IT, OR WHY! (c) When I say KEEP YOUR EYES LOCKED ON ME, YOU MUST DO THAT! THAT IS THE ONLY WAY YOU WILL WALK ON WATER!

Well, I'm not here to tell you that I am this overnight bastion of faith, or that I have made a 100%, 360 degree turn around overnight. I've lied to myself enough. (can't lie to him anyway, HIM KNO EBERYTING!)

I can and will tell you that I AM SURE THAT I AM HERE ONLY THROUGH THE GRACE OF GOD.

All the aforementioned issues are unnecessary concerns because of subtitle (c)!

So, my journey has begun . . . . one day at a time.